Full Stop.

I know I said from the beginging I would use this blog to write how I feel about stuff, but what happens when you've run out of feelings ?

I felt like this could make or break my new year, it just broke it. Shit start to another shit year. Nothings changed, people are still walking all over me. I thought I was strong enough to take people on but I guess I just can't offer what they can. I lost, everyone loses at some point, but when you've been doing it your whole life you always get the one that you really believe will give you an ounce of hope back & sometimes it does and they prove to you that your worth it, but sometimes they prove to you, your worst fear, you are worth less than some whore. Even though everyone tells you your better than that untill someone takes a chance to prove it to you your never going to believe it. I guess im really done this time. Done trying to be happy. Done trying to prove something to people. Done fighting a battle I keep losing. Done beleiving people's shite.

Im Just Done, It's Over, Gone, You Won.

My brave face will tell a whole other story though as per usual.