Im afraid...

I can't forget you.

No matter how much I've tried it's just made me worse. I don't think I've felt this low in a long time & it's beginning to show.

Your not worth this but yet I can't let it go.

I feel stupid & humilliated for letting my heart take a chance on someone again, someone I thought it would be different with. Turns out it really wasn't.

My feelings are slowly starting to dissappear, out of sight out of mind I guess, that's why I don't want to see you because I know when I do it'll all come back & it could go two ways.

1. You could completely ignore me - with no valid reason because last time we spoke we were on good terms.
2. Or you could do what you normally do & flirt with me and feed me all this bullshit.

I want you to do the first one but that'll just hurt like hell, so I'd rather you do the second one because then atleast I can end it on my terms & I will this time, Im not saying ill end it completly because we all know I won't. But if there's no valid excuse for ignoring me then it will end completly. You don't treat me like that & get away with it.

URGH IM FUCKING FED UP OF WRITING ABOUT YOU I BET YOU DONT EVEN FUCKING THINK OF ME YOUR JUST THERE WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND, WELL WHATEVER.