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& even if I did wait, would soon ever come ?
WOULD YOU FOR ONCE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP !
I got what I wanted, attention from different boys, more than I expected tbh, made me feel so much better. But why do I still want him. It's stupid there were nicer boys talking to me but yet he's the one I'd look for. Urgh I think I just need to forget about him, looks like he's forgotten about me already.
I wish everyone would just stop moaning at me lately, let me breath for God sakes.
Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put 'em in quotations
Say what you need to say
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead,
If you could only ...
Say what you need to say
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say
If I could go back in time
Wouldn't change a damn thing in my life
Love the dumb things we do when we're young
But the best is yet to come.
Go for it, Run toward it
Dive in head first
Live life with no regret
Put your heart out there
Don't be scared you might get hurt, but it's all worth it in the end.
Nothings ever enough for me, I always want more but never get it. I always expect more but never see it.
I guess this is it then. The final chapter, the last straw.
Out of sight, out of mind.
You know what I'd rather it this way, saves me being hurt again. I just have to live with the fact that yet again some other girl beat me but yeah, that's okay it's what Im used to it's what I expect these day's.
I honestly thought that after 5 months you would have ment what you said, becaus 5 months is a long time to just string someone along unless you had feelings for them. You told me you did but how am I supposed to believe that when your all talk no actions. You expect me to make the moves & seriously like Im gonna do that it's me, or you do it when your under the influence of alcohol.
Im fed up of writing about you but by the looks of things this could be one of the last blog's I do write about you. You seem to have either forgotten or given up. But it's good I get my space, my chance to forget about you, or atleast try.
Okay so that's a lie I wont forget but I can act like I have, I mean so far I seem to be pulling off the 'Im slowly getting over him' thing when the truth is Im not. Im just stuck there's no way back & no way forward, I can't do anything about it so it's pointless talking about it.
I'll just leave you to it from now on.
Im too confused & too fed up to carry on the way im going.
So if you like me that much eventually you'll find a way of getting me & then Im yours, but untill then there's no room for me so I'll just go with the flow.
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Sounds like hell of a plan, even if I do say so myself.
Battered and bruised
Broken confused,
It's time we both knew.
Can't stop what I started
This time we both lose.
& by the way
By the way
What made you think you'd have it your way ?
& by the way
By the way
Don't say I didn't warn you that I'll always stay the same.